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after aquiring the strength and will to progress, i rose to my occasion to the best my body could offer. what i thought was sweat were beads of blood dripping from my hair; streaming down my face with extream pace. i may have been injured badly, and i know im not that far, but ill do this. i wiped my face and continued forth; each rock i climbed gashed into my palms; i could feel a stream of warmth running down my forearm. its a fucking battle to climb this tall, and i will take the shit this has to offer, and i will rise to my finest hour. ::: posted by Eddie at 9:54 PM the thumping of my heart shot through my chest with pain. my body was strewn acorss the jagged rocks; i refuse to stop here. my blood was running through the cracks, my head was aching with pain, but i wont give in. i roll to my side, i look up to the sky; birds were circling around the clouds and sun. i grew a small grin (i will do this). i plant my left hand to the ground, lift onto my knees and rise to the challenge. i dont care about the scars, i dont care about the pain, i will make it to the top. i will fucking do this. ::: posted by Eddie at 12:04 AM stage 7 - acceptance i sit alone a lot, my thumbs fidgit while my brain calibrates. its hard to think of the ambiguious future that lies ahead. we as humans are not perfect, and most reside in a form to replenish our souls. i wish i could accept certain things, but its late, and in a lifeform such as myself, its hard. you cant just induce yourself to something of this caliber. i tend to ramble out thoughts; i write them in this binary slot through hyptertext markup language to vent out some frustration before i sleep. it helps i guess, but its not a compesation for the flustered ideas. but i leave it as this, text in space. goodnight ::: posted by Eddie at 12:06 AM 1510401431411 5604015715615 4171040146141 1641501515504 0157165164143 1571551451630 4016415014116 4040151040143 1411560401561 5704015415715 6147145162040 1601621451441 5114316405604 0040155171040 1431501451631 6404016015716 5156144163040 1671511641500 4016415014504 0146145141162 0401571460401 4614115415415 1156147040142 1411431530540 4014115614404 0155171040155 1511561440401 6316414116216 4163040164157 0401461571541 5415716704016 3165151164056 0400401421651 6404015104016 7151154154040 1461511471501 6404015116405 4040151040167 1511541540401 4414516315115 5141164145040 1641501450401 5114414514116 3040164150141 1640401421621 5115614704015 5145040164157 0401601451631 6315115515116 3155040141156 1440401510401 6715115415404 0146151147150 1640401671511 6415004015517 1040157160164 1511551511631 5504016415704 0160162145166 1511411540401 6415704016415 0145040160157 1511561640401 5714604015517 1040160162145 1441511641451 6215515115614 5144040145156 1641511641710 5604004015104 0167157156164 0401471511661 4504016516007 3040151040167 1571561640401 4715116614504 0151156056040 0401511641630 4016715716216 4150040151164056 octal code ::: posted by Eddie at 11:54 PM the anomolies the ambiguities the pressure building i need a remedy, one that cures woes of unsettled thoughts. but should these thoughts destroy feeling? i shoudnt be thinking these thigns, i should be focusing. i know i have somethign amazing, even if i want more, i have to hold on to this im sorry ::: posted by Eddie at 12:15 AM its almost like nothing else was around me. when the body loses feeling and concentrates on heartbeats, there is only the rhythem of the nervous undertone trying to relay the message in morse code to the senses - "embrace this kid" i was stuck on a word, and lost in my feelings. i tend to float on into the massage of that thoght association; feeling flutters and knowing truths. dont let go, but dont hold back. ::: posted by Eddie at 12:34 AM |
