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the nights make me shiver, they are so cold. sometimes i just feel lonely, but i remember how much hurt comes from it all. but i wish i could feel that love again.... countdown - 6 days ::: posted by Eddie at 4:10 PM it is gone, but not forgoten. the fine shading that could define a face has been disposed of. it seems wierd though, for it to be gone. i look as if i am a different person and cant pass for R movies. i look younger, and strange. but after a while it will seem fine, but its just not the beards time. ::: posted by Eddie at 10:55 PM i talk to you, and i feel like everything is perfect. i talk to you and i feel like shit ::: posted by Eddie at 10:00 PM coml.shorturl.com its a hell of a lot shorter ::: posted by Eddie at 6:58 PM sorry, i had to post this so that i could fix my site errors, because im a stupid person ::: posted by Eddie at 4:12 PM the tear that i shed that streams down my face is one of loss. not loss of love, but one of times. i know many people may be annoyed by this post, but i could care less. for yes, this is about LeeAnn. now you can bitch and say get on with yourself, but this is not about being with her. its about missing a good friend. the times we shared together were priceless. forever, these such things carve intracit (fuck spelling) pictures in my memory, like a photograph. a photo that you wuold keep in a diary, a planner, in your locker, but in my mind. these memories hold the feelings of those peacful nights. the way we talked, the way we felt, beautiful. deep withing my beating breast they lay, where forever they shall stay. ::: posted by Eddie at 10:34 PM if i hear ONE MORE FUCKING PERSON ASK MY WHY I DIDNT GO TO SCHOOL TODAY IM GONNA SHOOT THEM WITH A GUN SO BIG THAT THEY WILL DIE INSTINTANIOUSLY! FUCK! ::: posted by Eddie at 7:45 PM im sure in the fuck glad no one likes to help me the fuck out. fucking bastards ::: posted by Eddie at 10:05 AM shhhhh...... just listen...... do you hear it? just take in your surroundings, then act ::: posted by Eddie at 7:35 PM i miss my dad. i rarely get to see him anymore. his job takes away most of his time, and even he doesnt like how he gets about 17 hours off of work every 2 weeks at times. im glad he gets to be around on prom night though. hell get to see me on a special event, and lookin shnazy. i wanted to give him a hug today, but, with my brother there, i felt awkward, but i should have anyway. ::: posted by Eddie at 8:21 PM lately i get so fed up. i live in an area filled with stupidity. my mom is to lazy to help me out with anything. someone once told me, that she was proud of my accomplishments, proud of me and the bands. she sure doenst show it. "i dont want to take you out to shores" "im not picking you up at the harbor" "im not driving anywhere" "i have to work" wich in the working case, she always works before or after i ask for the task. she hasnt helped me out in at least 2 months. even more. ive had to rely on everyone else. and that starts to piss everyone off. and then i get the hassle. sometimes she fucking forgets i even exist. siblings have kids, and right from that start, im just the kids who sits off in space trying to get my mom to listen. i mean even at this years christmas dance. i asked my mom for 3 hours straight to iron my shirt. she blew it off because my brothers kid was over. she ignored the whole fukcing time. she angers me. she says she tries, she says she does do things, bnut she hasnt done shit. tell me, how hard is it even to go 10 minutes out and pick me up anyway? sure shores is a lot farther, but she could at least help with gas money. i cant keep relying on someone who lives out there to drive 4 hours each time just so i can practice for one hour. FUCLK FUCK SHIT DAMN. i get so irritated. the only time she has ever helped me out, is when i was mascott. but thats only beccause my sister was a cheerleader ::: posted by Eddie at 4:50 PM ah the time has come upon me once again. one of those times when i feel confidant that i can suceed. but ive noticed something. and its kinda wierd. but when i dont try, i seem to do a lot better. i mean come on, look at it. i sat on my arse, i got in two bands, i sat on my arse, and got 2 girlfriends. i mean i should sit on my arse a lot more! but ya know, things change, and oppertunities arent the same as a grow older. so ill have to try once and a while. i guess.... or something.. yeah ::: posted by Eddie at 6:56 PM i sit in the dark, candle light creating the mellow aura of the room. i sat there, and i thought. im taking an old story from the past, a harsh and battered trail, and making it into something that, something that feels good. remember the feelings? remember the events? i remember. to the comics goes this story. soon, the baby moniter crackled breifly, the lights started to flicker, and the power returned. sometimes i guess we have to lose some items to realize other things. and now im ready for this creation. i think it will be splended. ::: posted by Eddie at 7:49 PM im not exactly sure why, but lately i have this side that is all feelin down. a side of me feels down about something, but my finger cant quite pinpoint it. something seems to be missing, something seems to be not right, but what the fuck is it? ::: posted by Eddie at 7:37 PM *yawn* its been boring lately. nothing to do but sit here and ponder the things ahead of me. the only things im really looking forward to is prom and hopefully this battle of the bands. but i guess its gonna be pretty fun and all to hang out with the guys preparing for BOTB. i also miss cerial. yeah.... its good stuff. ::: posted by Eddie at 5:14 PM |
